12.23.2008

this ones for da homies

so here i sit one day before christmas eve thinking about all the things to be thankful for - the spirit of christmas will do that to ya i guess.

there's one constant in my life and that's my friends. i couldn't ask for better. you know who you are. you're the ones who love me unconditionally just as i love you;

my best friend - you're my sister. i cannot explain in words what a feeling it is to know i can tell you absolutely anything without harboring any fear or self-doubt. i don't laugh nearly enough when you're not around. it still amazes me how even though we physically exist in different parts of the country i always feel like you're with me. (could be the texting, ay? :) i love you.

my childhood friend - you're my friend of make-believe who i can always spend hours talking about all the fun we had when we lived just down the street from each other, riding bikes and playing in the basement. you make me see more of myself; and i am incredibly lucky to have you just a few hours away. we need to take advantage of that fact more often. i love you.

my scientist - you've always been my other sister. this past year i'd like to think our friendship has grown even more (thank you googletalk!). you have no idea how many large bouts of laughter i've let out sitting in my lonely cubicle during the 5-day work week. your humor has yet to be matched and i love our lamo inside jokes. i love you - even if you're a scarf nazi.

my new friend - i say "new" because you are the only new person in my life i need. thank you for always watching out for me, picking me up on snowy days and always automatically disliking the people i dislike. you are a true friend through and through. my life in madison would be a mess without you in it. i love you.

my san franciscan - you are going to have no idea what this means but i'm going to make the analogy anyway. you're my jacob. i don't know how we went from bomb threats to this but you're one of my closest friends. thank you for always making my sides hurt from laughter and thank you for always loving me without reason. i love you.

word.

12.18.2008

snowed-in!

it sure does seem like christmas is sneaking up on me. my dad was right when he said the older you get the faster the year goes by. it might be the result of my days all seeming the same. sometimes its hard to tell a monday from a friday. i'm not really complaining. i like knowing what to expect each day. i do miss back in the day when my waitressing schedule would be different every 2 weeks. i complained then too though. i think we always want what we don't have.

it looks like we're going to be snowed in tomorrow. while i would love to be without snow for the rest of my existence i do appreciate a snow day off work! it's the one upside of all the bad weather - that and the fact that i don't have to shovel anymore. shoveling + me = crabby. when bryan was in germany a few weeks ago it really showed me how helpless in the north i would be w/o him. if i were single i would definitely not live here. i like madison a lot more than i did at first and it does feel like home but i definitely don't see myself braving a solitary winter here.

the cold weather does at least force me to come to terms with being indoors. i don't typically enjoy a lot of physical outdoor activities but when the weather is nice i like to bounce around town - do some shopping and just drive around with the windows down. the snowy weather forces me to stay in and then i can actually focus on indoor stuff i enjoy like knitting and reading and snuggling with my cats. man, what an existence. :D

oh yeah ~ i finished all 4 of the twilight saga books. let me tell you how depressing it was to finish! i was dreading the ending not because of what could possibly happen at the end of the book but because i didn't want the story to end. i read all of midnight sun on stephenie meyer's website too. i wasn't expecting it to be as good as it was but it sucked me in even more than twilight! god bless a good book on a cold day. life doesn't get any better.

11.13.2008

oh and PS

i started reading new moon last night. yeah. i'm not even half way thru the book yet and it's already a sob fest. good thing i stocked up on tissue. :)

two bah's and a gaaaah

maybe i do see the negative in things a lot but i don't think i'm as bad as most people. i like to think i'm a realist. i tend to see things more as they are than how i'd like them to be.

i hate being told what to do. i'm not even going to go into more explanation than that but i just wanted to put that out there. i hatehatehate being told what to do. i also hate when people assume. don't assume. you don't know me. you might think you have me all figured out but believe me; you do not.

ugh. i feel like going on a tirade right now. and its not even worth it. there's really no point. people will form their ideas and opinions based on a few interactions, and that's just fine. if you're going to typecast me by just a few attributes and a few of your own perceptions, so be it.

for clarification; very few people know me. very few. very, very few. you might think you know me, but you have no idea. what a stale statement to use, but it sure holds some validity.

bah. stupid.

11.12.2008

don't judge me

please allow me to be a huge dork for the next, oh, 10 minutes or so.

i finished twilight last night. you know where you get to the point in a book where there's no chance you'll be putting it down until you've completed the last page? well, i got to that point around 8pm last night. let's just say it was a late night. i didn't get to bed until around midnight. i'm usually in bed by 10pm. don't judge me. i'm an old lady.

sidetrack: cut to me in the bookstore buying the sequel to twilight. after commenting how i am buying a book from the 'young adult' section the middle-aged sales clerk reassures me, "oh you have no idea how many 45 year old housewives and moms i get in here buying these books." to which i reply, "HOW OLD DO YOU THINK I AM EXACTLY?!"

but i digress. it was a smart move on my part to go out and buy new moon before i finished twilight b/c i want to jump right into the next book tonight. i was going to blog about my super good/scary/intense dream in which edward saved me a million times from things that wished me harm but i'm feeling a little too dorky right now so...

and scene.

in summation; a book report: twilight isn't going to be winning any awards for literary expertise but OMG is it a good read! if you're looking for something you won't be able to put down - cha-ching!

ya know, i kind of scoffed at the movie at first because it took the place of the next harry potter movie which got pushed back to next summer but i'm glad i bit the bullet and started the series. kudos to me!

11.07.2008

hello. i'm thirteen.

i'm reading twilight right now in anticipation for the movie and i'm starting to develop a big ol' 13 yr old girl crush on edward cullen. i think maybe for the sake of my reputation i need to stay away from teen novels (after i finish this series, of course!) i have such a long list of books to read. i'm really enjoying getting back into the groove of reading. it's such a great feeling of accomplishment when you finish a book. getting started is always the hardest part. it always takes me a few chapters before i'm completely enthralled in the book and have a hard time putting it down.

the best books are the ones that i find myself wishing i'm reading while i'm doing other things. they're the books that make me turn the tv off because the world i create in my head while i read them is far more captivating than the one created for me on television. so far twilight is fitting into that category. gah! why do i always turn into such a dork for shit like this?

wait what am i doing?? i better get back to reading!

tis the season


bah. we're supposed to get snow this afternoon. okay, so as much as i complain about snow - it really does kind of put me in the holiday spirit. i can't wait to get out and do some shopping. i'm also looking forward to the time when it's socially acceptable to start putting up some christmas decorations. i feel any time before thanksgiving is too early. if i do it this soon i'll be sick of christmas before christmas is even here!

the madison holiday market is this weekend so i'm looking forward to going to that and getting some shopping out of the way early. it's always good to space it out - especially when our economy is in the crapper.

hopefully our new president will bring a breath of fresh air to the country and things will start looking up. i think that all it will take is for people to start having confidence again. of course, if people are negative then things really will be negative. it's all a matter of outlook i think.